New Year’s Resolutions
I don’t tend to make New Year’s Resolutions. I am one of those people that doesn’t keep them very well. I have a treadmill that is collecting dust and a yoga mat that has not seen my stinky feet in months. I did manage to keep one of my resolutions that I made a couple years ago to never text and drive. However, there are a few resolutions that I want to try and keep this year, mainly because they will improve me inside and out but I guess that is the point of resolutions anyway.
Over the last month my symptoms have worsened and I have been feeling rather hopeless. I am crossing my fingers that with the new year and a few changes that maybe I can start feeling a little better again. As you will notice, I did not make my resolutions overly rigid or laborious. I left a little wiggle room in there. This is not lent after all. I do not want feel guilty if I sneak a piece of chocolate in after a few days. So here goes nothing….
NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS FOR THE SPOONIE
EAT MORE WHOLE GRAINS AND VEGETABLES
Diets are a common resolution, however, I tend to see most people go overboard with them. I think it takes a special focused person to do some of these severe elimination diets like the whole 30 or vegan diets. I am not one of those people.
This year, I just want to eat better and make better choices. It would be great if I could cut back on processed foods and those unhealthy quick-fix meals. The other thing that I want to cut way down on is my dependency on sugars. I already have eliminated soda and candy from the house but sugar hides in so many items. I will need to read the ingredients list more frequently.
There is something else that I have been thinking about doing. Prior to my diagnosis, I loved to cook but it has become too physically taxing to cook after coming home from work. I want to explore some fibro-friendly and easy recipes and share them with my fellow spoonies on this blog.
You notice that I didn’t say exercise more. I just said exercise. When the weather is pleasant, I have no problem getting out for a hike but when it is 9 degrees outside it is almost impossible to motivate myself to exercise. I would much rather be outside then walking on a boring treadmill inside but my options are limited and gym memberships are expensive.
This year, I am going to try to make myself more accountable. I am going to take a calendar and record what I do everyday. It’s no fitbit but if I do a little more each day then hopefully I can build up some endurance again.
Somedays I feel like a toddler. After a day of pain and fatigue, I have a tendency to turn into a cranky two year old. I don’t want to talk and and I certainly don’t want do chores. My brain just wants to shut down like an overloaded computer.
Over the next year, I hope to retrain my brain to not instantly meltdown when things get difficult. My plan is to take more mental breaks during the day and listen to gentle music. I also will focus more on my breathing when I feel overloaded.
I have talked about the benefits of journaling with chronic pain before but it is not something that I have been very good about doing on a regular basis. I always find myself putting it off for another time or day. Deep down I know that it will benefit my mental health and is an essential part of mindfulness practice.
I am always hardest on myself. There so many times that I wished I could have finished more during the day or been in a better mood but hanging on to these thoughts only makes me angry.
It is time for me to accept that I am going to have bad days. It is a fact of life now. I hope to keep in mind that some things are just out of my control. I do the best that I can each day and then I move on to the next. I need to continue to treat myself with love and compassion just like I would treat a friend if they were hurting. It is time to focus on what I can do instead of dwelling on the past.
I hope that you all have a wonderful 2018. If you would like to share your own resolutions then please feel free to leave a comment below.